Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Baby Feeling :)


Salam / Hi friends,
It's been so long that i haven't posted something on my blog, it seems that im too busy with work and hectic schedules.. How are you?? I am good, but lately i have these feelings of loving towards babies.. Like for instance not only human babies even animal babies i felt like sooo passionate about them and even feeling of wanting to have them..

When i look at babies, i feel love, i feel relieve, and it just makes me tense free. I always day dreaming, when i have a baby, as soon as i got back from work, i see them, play with them, and kiss them vigorously hehehe.... But since im not married to be thinking of having my own baby would totally out of the subject. So i look into baby rabbit and kittens... they are sooo CUTE... I wish to adopt them.. but then, i have to think again who's gonna take care of them if im out to the office, will i be able to bath them, give them food, will i be able to play with them and you guys should know something, i am afraid of animals, i am afraid of bites or scars, that is why i am afraid whether im tough enough to handle animals!! hehehe... awhh that feeling is sucks.. i wish i could just get married and have my own baby...

Is it time to search for love?? Is it time for me to get married? Will i be able to find a husband that loves me so much?? haish.... (the thoughts that i hate most)... My mum she said to me, "Akak, go on dates, go look for a boyfriend.." i said, "No, i like my life like this, not to have think about guys, and besides, i want guys to look for me, not me to look for them"... Almost all of the guys i've known lately, ask me to call them... (WHAT??) you want to tackle me, and you ask me to call you up, and i have to pay the bills.... And again, you all men said you misses me a lot, but did you call me up, just say hi?? just say i miss you, and goodbye?? NOOOO... Let me say here, 'GUYS NOWADAYS JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO LOVE GIRLS AND APPRECIATE US'... (When will i meet a decent guy who wants me so badly.... only ALLAH knows)... :)

So for now, i just played with my adorable nieces and handsome nephews... but in my heart i wish i had my own... and also my friends babies....

Okie....
That is all for now...
xoxo (muah muah)


Sunday, June 19, 2011

Killer Batch *Reunion Ex Student Printing, UiTM*

Sunday, 19 June 2011, i went to Sg. Congkak with 20 people of my ex-uitm friends to Hulu Langat. It was a get together spend time day for us or in other word, it was a reunion after for soo long we didn't meet up each one of us. Some of them after degree graduation, some after diploma graduation and some after months and weeks and days.

This was an exciting day for us and we had a superb blasting day of eating with assorted of BBQ foods (chicken, fish, burgers, sausages, bake potato, corn and etc) and bathing in the river called Sungai Congkak.

It all started, when i was actually discussing with anim (one of my friends from uitm and now we are officemate) hehe... We were planning to go to somewhere cold for a holiday like 2 days 1 night, so the place that i have never been for sooo long was cameron highland. So as we were discussing about it, i called my friend ikhwan (ex uitm friend).. so he said that was a good idea and he ask me spread the ideas to all of our batch ex uitm... So what i did was create an event on Facebook and make it privately only for our batch only. I put it as 'Let's go Cuti~!!' but then there was a lot of disagreeing by others because if we go to cameron they feel that it is not enough days and it will make us more exhausted. We discuss and discuss about it with all of my friends, over and over again, from Cameron to Bukit Tinggi, to playing bat at one utama to for a movie and lastly they decided to go to rivers like Sg Gabai or Sg Congkak... At last we agreed the Sg. Congkak... I've been to Sg. Congkak but for a very very long time ago maybe i was 3 years old (i guess) hehehe... and soon, we decided to change the title for the event to 'Let's go Leyparking'... huh~!!! whut...?? ahakz

So my friends decided and agreed on this date at Sg Congkak.. As i am the head of the event and secretary... i made some organisations and group leaders so that not only me whom have to do all the work, we have to do it as a team.. It was fun.. and everything runs perfectly accordingly to what i have planned.. We start our convoy at 8pm start point was SHELL at federal highway (Behind Tesco xtra, Shah alam) There was 6 cars convoy and we were getting soo excited that morning. It took us 1 hour to arrive Sg Congkak, Hulu Langat. Alhamdulillah everybody went there safely...
As soon as we arrive there, the boys starts the fire and BBQ place and the girls set up the place with newspapers. Then we start BBQ around 10am and everything finish about 12pm then we ate lunch there, i bake a cake 'Lemon Cheese cake' (it was delicous)... After eating, some of them at the same time went for bathing in the river.. The water was icy cold and i was shivering as though i was naked at antarctic ocean.. hehehe but as you slowly went into the water then you feel the excitement. Some was lying on the rocks while the water current push their body and some play with the water throwing water at friends...

We laugh We laugh... lalalala~!!! it was super duper FUN~!!!...

The best part of the day was a lot of people said i was slimmer... warghhh and i thought i was getting fatter... but it was flattering for people to said that especially friends that rarely seen me... suddenly they saw and was amazed... hehehe some whom seen me before, shuhhhshh (keep it quiet) i guess they knew i was a bit big from last time i was more slimmer... hehehe or this is just all in my head.. hehehe (ok dira dah merepek).

As we were playing with the water suddenly the clouds was a bit dark, so we went up and clean the place before it gets more rainier... In about 5 minutes cleaning the place suddenly the wind was getting stronger and it was starting to rain.. We took all the BBQ cookery stuffs and foods put it under a shade (pondok) we all went in the pondok and some played in the rain... like me i was hopping hopping while it was raining.. suddenly getting soo excited hehehe... we waited about 15 minutes suddenly the rain stops... we went into the river but some was cleaning all the tupperwares, i went into the water and took lots of pictures.. :D then about 3pm the boys ask to get ready to go back... we were reluctant to go back cause we just dont want to get out from the river ehehehe... But nonetheless, we rapped it up and change our clothes and packed out all the things and some extra foods.. We took lots of pictures while we was walking out the place. Here, below i'll put some of the pictures we took.. hehehe
Dira BUAT CAKE ni.. It is Lemon Cheesecake..

So we head back, but before that we went to khulafa bistro to go for drinks (sambung lepak)..This khulafa bistro at seksyen 7 was the only place we have been leyparking since studying.. This was the only place that we like so much to hangout and meet up all of our friends.. Around 6pm we close the event and let me tell you it was spectacular... I have more plans soon for my batch... i thought of maybe GENTING or Singapore or Kolam air panas... not tooo sure yet... but if we planned the next reunion i will keep update in my blog, no worries...~!!


Lastly, i just wanna tell you guys... I love my friends in uitm sooo much.. They understand me better and the best part is the guys and gals can be co-operative if we ask to do so.. no problem in the relationship... i hope we will still be friends eventhough everybody married... hehehe I Love you guys sooo much... Thank you for the great weekend guys~!!! muah xoxo...


THE END

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Warghh Iqa's Day....


To my dearest iqa, it was a suprise when you announced you are going to be engage a few months ago.. and it is even suprising because you are a 'wife' now.. I am so happy for you, oh!! how i wish i will get this lucky and be with someone that will love me the way like Latfi did to you... hehehe :D

The Day everyone says "SAH"

On the 3rd June 2011, 10am.. my dearest cousin 'Wan Nur Syafiqah Bt Mior Khairuddin' had her nikah day at Sultan Salahuddin Abdul Aziz Mosque... It was a very memorable day, because she's one of my cousin that i am really close with on my father's side (Perak). We are at same age, that's why i love her so much.. I remember since when we were kiddies until now as wommies (hehe), She would laugh at every single thing i said and do.. From hari raya, we didnt sleep the day before raya, main lari-lari kat dalam rumah, main with atok's inks and sampai tertumpah.. and we would be laughing on our stupid things we did... Even when i am sad, we still laugh... She loves to gigles on every single thing i do.. hahaha... But time makes us apart with work and busy life. But i still loves to talk to her ones in a few months HAHAHA....
(Okeyh dah melalut cerita zaman kecik-kecik pulak)...



Iqa dear, y DAY~!!!... It was like a dream... hehehe

But nonetheless, the calmness you had one your face during the big day, makes me feel believable, because you are like that.. i cant imagine if it was my day... Disastrous hahaha~!!! (i know you would be laughing right now) LOLL...~!!! Anyways i am wishing you lots of Joy and Love for you and your husband.. Congratulations... I love you so much.. Still keep in touch okie even your somebody's wife... Because you are so busy, i'll bring you the WONDERMILK Cupcake to your house laa next time okie... HAHAHA... Hope lot's of babies from both of you, so i can play with them hahaha and be an aunty for them... :D 

Love Love Love...
xoxo...
We all witness the Big Day.. and here's the BIG Family... 4 families in one day...
Iqa's Nikah Day.. This was the day she nod her head saying 'I DO' 
Latfi welcome to the BIG Family... :D
Our Daddies, facing a hard time to let go the Daughter and Niece a way..


Kami belum ada rezeki lagi... insyaALLAH agar ALLAH akan ketemukan kami Jodoh...
This is my dear cousin too Salwa... also same age as us (the three musketeers)
HAHA

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Batu Pahat - Melaka - OU

Me Again...

What have happen to me?? What have i been doing??
Well friends, i've been healing myself.. I am trying to get back on my own two feet all by myself struggle to get up when someone i love already push me down and stab me at the back... wow!! really painful..

I went to Melaka recently with my friend Aznim and before that i went to Batu Pahat (the place where i was grew up when i was a teenager) i went to school there since i was standard 2 (SK Convent Batu Pahat) till Form5 (Temenggong Ibrahim Girl School) then my father got transfered to KL so i move in to Petaling Jaya. Ok i am not here to tell bout myself. hehehe...

I think making myself busy was a good way to heal my heart. But sometimes i will go back to my senses 'GG'... I told my friend Anim, Ikhwan and sometimes Ainn... I said, "I am actually bored, bila bukak Handphone Phonebook, aku nampak balik-balik nama GG-ex bf, Nizam-ex bf, Zul-ex bf, Halim, if not halim, Afiq, i am bored.. If aku tengok number Gg (menyakitkan hati jangan telepon), If aku tengok number Nizam (Jangan call suami orang dah), If aku tengok number Zul (tunang orang tu bakal kawen, jangan nak gedik), Halim (alaaa jangan gedik sangat lelaki duda ni and mungkin dia sibuk dengan anak-anak dia), if call Afiq (hurm... tak habeshabes ajak lepak waktu orang smua tengah tidur)" Hurmmm...

Okayh, I am not gedik as i was way back before this. Maybe i am mature, and i dont want to be friends with guys who takes me as just a friend. I am looking for a husband. But well i already told my mum, i dont want to search for love, i am letting my family and friends to find my soulmate.. I want to get married, have a husband to love me for who i am (i am not desperate, i just want to have babies) hahaha... :D

So i had my fun months, i am not crying but still a bit hurt.. Still can feel it and still can come out droplets of tears.. hehehe... What i do then??? I go for KARAOKE with my cousins and families.. YEAY~!! i went karaoke with even my friends at melaka the other day... wuuhuuu~!!!

What to do, i love singing.. Below are some of the moments i had while i was in batu pahat and melaka.. Later maybe next month i am going to Bukit tinggi or Cameron Highlands. I will update soon k friends..

xoxo,
Salam_Enjoy...






Above, if when i was to melaka recently with my friend Aznim and then i met Ikhwan, he has been a great tour guide...

I went to see my friend at SALAM, she deliver this handsome baby boy... awhh do i have a gift to hold baby hehehe :D


Above, is when i was in a melt down.. and my cousins took me for ice cream at One Utama, Baskin Robbins. I love them...
Went to see my friend wedding at Batu Pahat and i met long-lost enemy during high school Su.. and her daughter.. Now we are no more enemy.. umur pun dah tua hehehe... :D
This is nurul my friend..


At Pasar Batu Pahat Cari Satay For Breakfast hehehe..

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Seandainya LELAKI TAHU... (if only guys knew)


Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila seorang perempuan jatuh cinta, lelaki itu tidak semestinya punya segalanya tetapi lelaki itu adalah segalanya di hatinya.

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila seorang perempuan itu mengalirkan air mata, itu bukan bermakna dia lemah, tetapi dia sedang mencari kekuatan untuk terus tabah menyintai lelaki itu.

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila seorang perempuan marah, memang dia tidak mampu mengawal perasaannya tapi percayalah, itulah maknanya dia sangat mengambil berat dan menyayangi lelaki itu. Lihat saja pasangan yang baru bercinta, mereka jarang bergaduh. Tetapi percayalah semakin bertambah sayang mereka pada seseorang, semakin pula banyak pertelingkahan yang berlaku.

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan bercakap banyak, dia tidak pernah bermaksud untuk membuat anda rimas, tapi dia mahu lelaki mengenalinya dengan lebih dekat.

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan berkata dia mahu anda berubah, itu bukan bermakna dia tidak mahu menerima anda seadanya, tetapi dia mahu menjadikan anda lebih baik, bukan untuk dirinya, tetapi untuk masa depan anda.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan cemburu dan tidak percayakan anda, bukan bermakna dia tidak sayang.. tetapi dia terlalu sayangkan anda dan masih menganggap anda anak kecil yang masih memerlukan sepenuh perhatian. Kadang2 dia terlalu risau sekiranya terlalu percaya, anda akan mengkhianati kepercayaan yang diberi. Naluri keibuannya sangat kuat. Dia hanya mahukan yang terbaik untuk anda.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan merajuk, jangan kata dia mengada-ngada. Dia bukannya mahu dipujuk dengan wang ringgit atau hadiah sedozen, tetapi cukup dengan perhatian yang boleh buat perempuan rasa dihargai.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan jarang mengatakan ‘i love u’, itu tidak bermaksud dia tidak menyintai tetapi dia mahu lelaki itu merasai sendiri cintanya, bukan hanya hadir dari kata-kata tetapi juga melalui bahasa tubuhnya.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan kata dia rindu sama kamu, dia benar-benar maksudkannya. Apabila berjauhan, bayanganmu akan sentiasa bermain di mata.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan kata lelaki lain itu lebih baik dari kamu, jangan percaya katakatanya kerana dia hanya mahu menguji kamu. Dia mahu melihat sejauh mana kamu sanggup menjadi yang terbaik di matanya. Walaupun sebenarnya memang kamulah yang terbaik di hatinya. Selagi dia dengan kamu, percayalah, walaupun perempuan menganggap masih ramai lagi yang lebih baik di matanya tetapi di hatinya, kamu tetap yang terbaik.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan menjadi degil, dia bukan bermaksud untuk menjadi degil tapi dia mahu melihat sejauh mana lelaki itu mampu bersabar dengan kerenahnya. Percayalah, hati perempuan itu sangat lembut. Andai kena caranya, jangan terkejut kalau akhirnya dia menukar fikirannya dalam masa sesaat.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan berkata, “tolong tinggalkan saya!”, dia tidak bermaksud menyuruh anda pergi selamanya. Dia hanya mahu menenangkan fikirannya sebentar saja. Apabila dia kembali tenang, percayalah dia akan mencari anda semula. Itu tandanya dia benar-benar menyintai anda. Perempuan sukar untuk mengawal perasaan. Dia terlalu emosional. Tapi dialah yang paling menyayangi anda dan sangat sensitif dengan perubahan pada diri anda.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Sememangnya Allah menciptakan lelaki dan perempuan itu dengan perbezaan yang tersendiri. Tetapi sekiranya mereka saling memahami, mereka akan saling melengkapi dan menyempurnakan.

Perempuan itu diciptakan oleh Allah indah sekali. Di sebalik air matanya, tersimpan seribu satu kekuatan yang bakal menjadikan seorang lelaki itu merasa selamat bersamanya. Biarpun zahirnya perempuan itu tampak lemah tapi dia punya kekuatan tersendiri yang bisa menggoncang dunia dan mungkin bisa pula membuat lelaki menjadi lemah kerananya. Jadi hargailah kehadiran seorang perempuan dalam hidup anda kerana dia didatangkan bukan dengan kelemahan sahaja tetapi dia juga ada kekuatan untuk menyokong anda dan membuatkan hidup anda lebih sempurna. Dialah yang bakal menjadi perempuan bekerjaya, isteri juga ibu yang terbaik untuk anak2 anda.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

I think... what do guys afraid of??

Hi babes and bobes (what?),
Hehehe... actually this article today is something that i've been thinking today, because of the break up event recently, so it has been playing in my tiny tiny mind inside of me.. what do guys actually afraid of?? when i ask this question, what i mean here is that what are they afraid from us girls? not that afraid of ghost or animals ke no no i mean from us perempuan... Apa yang buat lelaki takut pada perempuan.. (hah ni baru ayat betul sikit hehehehe)

I dont know about you babes and bobes out there thinking, but i have listed some of the things that might be the cause.

1. Too many girls out there in the WORLD TODAY...
Most probably, sebab mereka takut if tersalah pilih pasangan. Jadi mereka : "testing yang ini (alaaaa, tak ngam laa) testing lagiiiii.... (alaaaa, lagi laa tak ngam) amik balik laa yang pertama testing tadi...."Wow.... hati siapa yang sakit?? perempuan jugak... hehe.. Berapa banyak kali kita asyik nak jadi yang testing jer ni?? hehehe....

2. Too many girls with HIGHER INCOME..
Most probably they are afraid, they do like us and love us but..... "alamak gaji aku ni tak seberapa, macam mana nak pinang anak dara orang ni?? mampuih laa aku nak carik and korek duit, tu baru nak pinang, dah kahwin aku nak bagi dia makan apa pulak, boleh ke dia tinggal dengan aku kat bawah tanah rumah" hehehe
Hey, i thought when you get married bukan kita boleh saling kongsi ke?? takkan laa semua suami kena beli, isteri pun boleh tolong apa.. If u guys so afraid bout duet pinangan, why dont you ask them to be a bit reasonable (ikut kemampuan masing-masing). But if there's man out there who read this and you think your income is much higher than us right now, then i dont mean it is you.

3. Too many VERY INTELLIGENT woman..
"aku suka dia, lebih pandai, cerdik and waras.. and just love when she talks especially in english, but aku ni 1 tahap bawah sikit dari dia (education level tak sama), boleh ke aku buat dia bini, kalau dia pandai sangat pun tak boleh jugak, melawan aku pulak kang" Erm.... ok, i know our parents always says, "Kau nak cari suami/isteri, cari yang sama taraf (ei: education)". For me it doesn't really matters, as long as the man knows how to step up a notch than the woman and knows how to educate the woman to obey him, tak kesah laa if takde pelajaran pun.. But at least ada laa pelajaran dengan adab agama yerk kawan-kawan...!! jangan cari lelaki yang suka buat masalah.

There are actually a lot of causes not only "3", but what i've wrote here only the expression of what im dealing right now. Maybe different people have different thoughts on it. Okie maybe, it is to harsh to say about the 1st caused, saying that man cheating until they found the best one, because ALLAH is actually the One who decides, makes and creates our destiny. What we have experiencing is to make us more tougher, make us be more mature, and more independent. Just take it as a task that we need to learn from it. Don't be depressed over a break up. Another think i learn, when you fall in love, always remember, ALLAH is always the first.. Adapt some of our Islamic manners in your relationship, don't be too easy going or men will take advantage on us because woman can be weak easily. I hope non women got to face what im facing right now, eventhough i want that but mostly all woman face it anyways. Just trust yourself, build up confident and love yourself too...

I love all my dearest girls (friends and cousins)...
xoxo....

Saturday, April 9, 2011

G is just not into Me

Hi friends,
I'll bet some of you may know the Hot Hot Hot story about me this about 2 weeks ago and maybe some of you guys have no idea. Recently, dira and my family kena tipu tipu lagi... (ayat dari peserta raja lawak, but i only remembered this trademark, other contestants i cant remember)

Last year 7/12/2009 i fall in love with this guy, his name we just say it G here okie.. But we broke up on the 21/3/2011 after 1 year and 3 bulan 13 hari bersama. It all started when dira punye HOT temper mula itu pun bukan sebab sengaja nak marah-marah.. I guess he cant stand it.. But i think it was normal when girls in a not stable hormones. So he cant take it, he go and tell his mum at first, suddenly came his 1st lover (1st ex-gf), whom have been contacting him accidently, he tells her and she gave him some advices. But i cant really see it as a big problem in our relationship, because usually when we had a fight we always settle it there and then that time, i thought it was over already but he took it seriously deep deep serious.

Then, out of no where early of March 2011, we talked as usual on the phone 24/7, but i notice something weird with him, he is ignoring me and i kept asking "Sayang where are you? what are you doing??". I dont know why but i guess again he knows how i felt.. so the next day, he called me up and he said,

G : "G rasa dira mesti pikir knape G been ignoring you?" of course i was surprise that he knew how i felt..

G: "Dira semalam G bagitahu mak pasal dira!"

N: "Ye ke, sayang crite apa?? mak cakap apa??"

G: "G crite pasal family dira, pasal dira, and i also told her about your temper, yang dira marahmarah G"

N: "What!!, Why did you told her all that, bukan ke itu boleh buat mak rasa macam tak sedap, mesti lepas ni if dira jumpa dia, she will think, ouh ni laa budak pompuan yang suke marah-marah anak aku, mana ada mak yang suke, kenapa G buat macam tu kat dira?"

G: "G buat macam tu sebab G dah tak tahu nak cerita kat siapa? Fikiran G kusut"

N: "Kalau ye pun, bagi tahu S ke (kawan baik G), habis tu apa mak cakap?"

G: "Tak mau laa cakap kat S, dia busy.. Mak cakap G kena fikirkan relationship ni baik-baik, ni untuk masa depan G, kalau tak pun suruh dira berubah... (paused kejap) Boleh dira berubah untuk G"

Saya fikir-fikir punye banyak fikir then saya letak telephone and call member bestfriend saya bernama I.

I: "Nadh aku rasa dia buat macam tu sebab dia rapat dengan mum dia kut, ko kena laa berubah jangan temper sangat, aku tengok ko temper aku pun takut" 

Saya fikir demi relationship ini dan kasih sayang saya.... then...

N: "G dira akan berubah demi masa depan kita dan sebab dira sayang G" (actually sometimes i got so Hot temper is for me showing, when i get married i am like this) hehe...

G: "Terima kasih dira, G hargai semua tu and G sayang dira juga, tapi G nak tanya dira, if laa family dira semua tak suke G, tapi demi cinta apa dira akan buat?"

N: "Dira akan put my foot down and said that i love him, and i want to marry him, sebab dira ni jenis if dira nak sesuatu dira nak jugak"

G: "Dira if break dengan G, dira ada penganti tak tuk G?"

N: "Mesti la tak ada, dira takde pun simpan sesiapa in my life besides you, kenapa G tanya soalan macam ni, dira tak suka laa"

G: "Hah!! tak de pape laa sayang... Saje je G nak tanya, Sorry"

So, it was ok again, the weekends later we went to see movies on Saturday we watched "World's invasion" and on Sunday we watched Merong Mahawangsa. The date was perfect, no rivalry, we talked and i was in my usual mood happy, but sometimes i can see on his face looks kinda bit different, it's like he is thinking of something but he just doesn't want to express it.

Frankly, i can feel different in all ways, the way we talked and the actions, but i didnt say anything because i love him too much. I changed a lot that past few weeks i was always in a good mood and he even notice it. What i had promise, i really did it.. I control most of my temper..

G: "Dira, G nampak sayang dah berubah sekarang, and i like it, always be like this, promise me sayang?"

D: "i promise"

G: "Nanti minggu depan G balik melaka, G bagi tau mak ok.."

On 19/3/2011, G went back to Melaka on the evening, after a long day of spending time with me that morning at IOI mall. I missed him already at that time, because spending time only for a while, but i always told him family first. So, when he arrive to Melaka, i did not know what had happen there, he didn't text me saying where have he been and all.. so i assuming he was with his parents. So i waited till that night, i ask him whether he had told his mum or not bout i've changed and he said,

G: "G tak tahu la dira, bile G sampai melaka mak masam jer, macam tak mau cakap dengan G, tak tahu pasal apa, tapi bila petang macam tu F (his sister) panggil G mak nak kuar then G pun keluar laa, (i cant remember where, but it was somewhere)

N: "Okie, cuba sayang cakap dekat mak G, perlahan tanya G ada buat salah kat mak ke? and then if you tell her bout me baru la ok sikit"

So the night ended, just like that. The next day, he called he said what am i doing, at that time i dont think i was doing something, it's either i sat at home watching TV or went out with my parents. Then he said was in his room, looking at the fan, fikir apa la nasib aku ni. So we chat for few minutes, he said he was thinking bout us and he said actually his mum already have her own pilihan hati for G. I was crying when i heard that. 

Then he said not to worry cause he is going to talk to his mum. Later that night he call me up, G cakap he already talked to his mum and his mum cried cause he wants G to be there Melaka and if he marries me she will lost him because i'm staying in KL, she wants a menantu yang duduk dekat melaka so that the menantu can take care of the parents. I said to G, do he really know what a peranan isteri kepada suami dan keluarga. If my husband wants me to stay at Melaka why do i need to rebel? I must obey. 
He said,

G: "G tak tahu la dira apa G nak buat sekarang ni, mak dah nangis-nangis, sebab dia kata G dah kurang ajar tak dengar dia cakap"

N: "Abesh pasni G nak buat apa?"

G: "Dira bagi G masa tuk pikirkan boleh, besok kita cakap lagi ok, G nak tidur"

The next day, 20/3/2011, I went to work as usual, everything was OK for at the moment, suddenly i got a msg at my facebook, by G ex-gf name Sy (the 2006 ex-gf), she said in the msg, she thinks i need to go check a msg at G facebook (where it's been months i did not open), there's something about me that doesn't look good, G and his sis in law Z talking bout me at my back. Immediately i open my iphone facebook, i saw it was a long conversation (because it was too long so i only look at some parts only) and it stated all the bad things bout me. But because in hp i only see the important msg only, i didnt read it until finish. He said bout this girl name A and how pretty she is, the type of wife he wants to be married to.. and so so soooo on... i got mad. I ran outside of the office and yelled at G, "WHO IS A???" he explains, thats the girl that his mum been talking about... i ask him DO YOU STILL LOVE ME?? he said YES but he needs to think bout it.. i was depressed at that time he said "can we talk later bout this later". So i said "G buat la apa G kena buat, i cant think at this point". In the office, while i was doing my work i cried and cried quietly.

That night supposedly, there's a karaoke birthday celebration at Redbox with my boss i was not in a mood that night. Actually, my heart and head just want to talk to G and know the answer. I feel i want to cry, i ask my boss that can i go back home early, because im not feeling good. But my friends ask me to sing 1 song only before i go back, and then i sang "Kelly Clarkson, a moment like this, on the 1st verse as i was singing, suddenly i cant take it and i cry... (menangis tersedu-sedu, sedih tul, hahaha) Then immediately, without hesitate, my boss ask me to go home and I did.

As i was at home i texted G that im at home, he called me later then, we talked bout what just happen. He said he needs time to think bout us or he can decide to break up with me "demi MAK and FAMILY". I said, "i will wait i dont want to loose you". He said at the moment, i cant call him up, contact him for awhile. "But if G rindu boleh G datang jumpa?". i said "BOLEH", but i ask him "berapa lama dira kena tunggu jawapan G". He said months maybe. I cried and cried and cried.. i ask him is this a "BREAK UP SEMENTARA". He said, "Jangan cakap macam tu ini bukan break up ni cume to let me think" i ask him to do sembahyang istihara. He said he will. So we ended the conversation that night with Goodnight and i love you so much. I solat and solat and ask ALLAH what should i do, please give me signs to our relationship. I cried and cried and cried like a mad person again, even i talked to myself in my room, talked to the MR.Teddy he gave me (i was a crazy person for a moment) until i sleep and the next day after solat subuh, i talked to the MR.Teddy again and again... "Why do you this to me, do you love me Mr Teddy Why" omg... crazyyy!! scaryyy ok....

On the 22/3/2011, I pray and pray untill after solat maghrib, i was in the office waiting for the next shift then later came my officemate, she said to me, "dira aku rasa aku nak baca conversation G balik, i think what G is doing is soo wrong. I think there's something he is hiding. i want to read again the conversation between him and his sis in law Z." i persuade not to read it, but then i feel that maybe what she might be right... because i didnt read all of the conversation. So open it and save it in pdf format and read it one by one.

I was skeptical with his actions and reactions. Almost everything was the bad thing bout me and my parents and only the good things was about this girl name A. He even said in the conversations about, he went to Genting 16/3/2011 with his ex-gf "A" and A's sister and how he wish he can cuddled her and his in law supports him and she was a batu api on the conversations. He said to me he have to go to muar to go work.. (HE LIED) If you read the conversations, it is just not the way G always be. He even lied to me bout the his family and mother didn't like me.. It was all lies. It was nasty. As i read 1 quarter of the story i cant take it, so i left the computer and my friends finished the reading of it. I went back home and i told my mum everything. She was mad and she ask me to take everything that he owes us. I went upstairs after chit chat with mak and after being a bit wise in my actions. I called G up, and said to him very softly, nicely and a bit of sarcastic, i ask for break up because that's what he wants. I heard his voice a bit sad and i think i hear tears hehehe....

The next day, i posted in my facebook, "if there's anyone who wants to read the conversation (that showed how the true skin color of G) please give me your email". It was like a tsunami for a while in my facebook. Almost all girls and boys feel the pain i am receiving and almost everybody supports me. They gave me good advices and really makes me feel moved from all of then.. After all that, i slept very well like i already let go a burden in my life. I go with my life as a single and available girl. I was already lost hope in finding love. I told my mum, i want my parents to find my soulmate. Im tired.

But sometimes it is hard to deal with my heart, i sometimes think bout my past with G, How would i let go this love i gave to him? I sometimes also thinks ALLAH is showing that you cannot love guys more than you love ALLAH. My mistake was to love him so much with all my heart and soul. I think ALLAH is saving me from what was not mine.

To G: I am sorry i made you feel hurt because published the secret between you and your sis in law Z. Eveybody needs to know. Because i dont want you to hurt other girls just the way you hurt all your ex-gf.. and i am not happy of what you told your friends because they said my friends and family didnt know better. You dont love me then stop saying lies about me. I hope you feel how im feeling right now. All your 10'000 promises are all lies. I always think do you really love me the past 1 year ago?? What do you think i am?? And G dira ingat lagi bila dira tanya "Kenapa G buat semua ni kat dira?" you said, "sebab G memang saje nak buat dira benci G" there's always good way to break up.. But you took a disgrace way and i give you a vengence way. Thank you but i really really benci G..

Thank you,
xoxo


Friday, January 21, 2011

Anugerah Juara Lagu Ke-25


On the 9th January 2011 (sunday), 6pm, i went to AJL-25 using free tickets, thanks to Rockensteiners (a fan club for Faizal Tahir) one of the top singers in Malaysia for a great and power voice. You can see what i wore on that day, beside photo, a black snake skin leggings, black inner sleeveless with black long canigan, a pasmina scarf (my design of wearing it), a cottonon floral skirt, 3 stars belt (it wasn't i rating it, the belt have 3 stars on top the strap) and crocs shoes. It may sounds like i wore too many things, and people might think i'll be really sweating but i was not and i feel comfortable in it. Because i only have 2 tickets, the other tickets i gave my junior (Nur Ainn Yaakop), she's one of Faizal's Tahir die-hard fan. When i mean diehard, she knows everything bout FT and even knows all of his songs. If we were in the office, she would play his songs all of it all over and over again. Even, if you sit in her car, his songs will be played too..


My boyfriend was there for a moment, we thought maybe if there's still maybe a chance for him to get in but rumors says that it was full house, there was no tickets left and even some of the staff from TV3 wants to get in they cant they have to use the back pass. It was a bit disappointing for not getting the tickets for him. So, he waited around 7pm, then he went back to my house to watch AJL with my parents. hehehe isn't he sweet ^_^".

To get in was difficult, the door for the seatings on the Arena Level was so small, and you know Malaysians, they seem to not co-operating. No lines that was queuing up. So it was hard to get in, people would shout and push.. shout and push, it's like giving a birth ^_^* LOL...

The feeling was amazing. I can hear the orchestra warming up their musical instruments and the lightings and cameras was testing till it got right. The experience was great, never had i got the chance to feel it on the front of the stage. OK OK i would be lying if i never been to this kind of event but i don't know why it gives me goosebumps when all of the music and lightings were setting up. Approximately coming to 9pm, the manager of the show countdown 10 to 1, as he said 1, everybody clap clap clap, shout shout shout as hard as they can to give an excitement and fascinated the viewers from watching it on TV at home. Of course i was hoping to get in TV, so that my family would see me... But not that lucky then to be in TV.. They cant see me..  hehehe ^_^*.. 

The event start-off with a guest artist performance, from Francisca Peters, Nash & M.Nasir then start with the first performance by Yuna - Cinta sempurna and follow by some artist, all together there were 14 songs compete in the competition. Among all singers, the one that really give me a goosebumps all over my body that night was Yuna song. She sang it very melodious with the right notes and good high pitch. She was incredible in making an amazing 1st performance. Faizal Tahir's both songs hanyut and selamat malam was great too. He was rocking the stadium like a concert and people not even a fan club of him loves him. When he starts to sing, almost other singers fan club would cheer for him. The bands i love most was, A.P.I (Pelita) because at the age early 20's i love independent bands, i always follow indie's band concert. Anyways, the combination of 3 indie bands was superb, they add in props in the song gave a huge impact in the song. This feeling of watching all of the contestants make us feels proud for our local Malaysians, proud of the songs they made, the performance quality improve and the important thing was that everybody satisfied with all the singers. 

Devastatingly, the judges had made a huge disappointment on the result of the competition. It was all wrong
from was viewers seen and heard. The feeling of mistake have made all Malaysians feels a bit unfair and the next day, in tabloid and facebook, people mocking all the singers that had won that night. Even they made group for the ones that hate some of the winners. In tabloids, reporters speculate that the head of the judges have a different of looking at a singer. He was saying bout the lyrics, melody and performance that could be the winner. But a lot of supporters did not agree with his result. This made a talk of the world or so just for Malaysians. But as you know, we Malaysians what comes around, goes around. They make it such a big deal for awhile but then now it seems to be quite people just move on. It already had happen. So i ended this
with, Malaysian Rocks!! hehehe ^_^ *. Below you can browse on the pictures i have taken. Hope you all love it too, like i tove it hehehe XOXO *hugs and kisses*.




Winner Lagu AJL25
Tolong Ingatkan Aku – Ana Raffali

Second Runner Up AJL 25
Drama King – Meet Uncle Hussain dan Black / Taja / Tun Teja

Tempat Ketiga AJL 25
Noktah Cinta – Hafiz / Ajai/ Shah Qalam

Persembahan Terbaik
Faizal Tahir – Hanyut

Vokal Terbaik
Hafiz – Noktah Cinta

*14* songs compete in the Anugerah Juara Lagu 25
1. Cinta Sempurna – Yuna / Yuna / Yuna
2. Pelita – A.P.I / Loque / Loque
3. Berlari – Tomok / Audi Mok dan Shahzee Ishak / Tomok
4. Drama King – Meet Uncle Hussain dan Black / Taja / Tun Teja
5. Tolong Ingatkan Aku – Ana Rafali / Ana Rafali / Ana Rafali
6. Kebahagian Dalam Perpisahan – Shahir / Edry Abdul Halim / Edry Abdul Halim
7. Noktah Cinta – Hafiz / Ajai/ Shah Qalam
8. Selamat Malam – Faizal Tahir / Audi Mok / Faizal Tahir
9. Ku Ada Kamu – Adira / Edry Abdul Halim / Edry Abdul Halim
10. Extravaganza – Bunkface / Sam Bunkface/ Bunkface
11. Sofea Jane – Black / Shah Kamikaze dan Iswandy / Farril
12. Hanyut – Faizal Tahir / Audi Mok / Faizal Tahir
13. Jahat – Stacy / Edry Abdul Halim / Edry Abdul Halim
14. Mencari Konklusi – Hujan / Noh Hujan / Noh Hujan

Friday, January 7, 2011

Big Big Bag SALE!!!

Big Big Bag SALE!!!!!

Hi Friends...
How are you all been?? I hope everybody is in a good shape. Ok, i'll be hosting a pre-loved items sale at kelana jaya. The map is on the picture, you click it to get the directions but if already knew this place, hope you can drop by and see some goodies that you may like.. The price range will start from RM5 to RM30 and the best part is that you can bargain. It is so cheap and worthwhile. Hope you can join me and my friends that are helping... and no biggy it is easy to locate the place as you see a banner to welcome you by BIG BIG BAG.. Hope that you can join us!! Happy Shopping!!!

Place (Venue) : No.82, Jalan SS3/41, Kelana Jaya, Selangor
Date :Sunday, February 6, 2011
Time :11am till 6pm